Post by Mr. Hendrickson™ on Sept 28, 2004 22:47:46 GMT -5
I dont know where I want to go with this whole column thing but right now I have alot of my mind os I am deciding to put it here so maybe I can help someone out there with a similar problem. So here is what I have on my mind and some points about it negative and positive.
I have been thinking about many things on the relationship end of my life. How I feel about these two wonderful women and what I should do to make them and myself happy. On one hand I got this girl who I have been friends with for well over 7 years and we finally met in May or so. We have this friendship that we both connect with one another on many levels. Spiritual, Emotional, Physical & Mental. I mean we have it all. I love her to death, and I have for years and she knows this. She tells me on a daily basis I make her very happy and she doesnt deserve me and I tell her to stop lying to herself because she deserves alot better you know. Maybe I dont have money like her boyfriend does but I show her the affection and need everytime I see her. She obviously sees this and doesnt know what to do. She loves me way more than a friend but not as much as she should you know. She said we are in that gray area now and she is confused. I know I love her and she loves me but why cant we be together? Well that is her little thing because she has a man who she does love too in a different way. I am confused about this but we have our weekends once a month right now and maybe more sometime down the road. I dont know I want more but dont know if she wants more yet.
Then I have someone else in my life that adores me just as much and she has been the crown jewel in my life as of late. She treats me like a king but only thing is she is married. I know this sounds bad but you know it happens time to time. We both feel in love with one another and thats where we lie. Only thing is we dont have the past like my friend and I do. I mean we love eachother but its not as strong as mine and my friends. You know what I mean? If not read on.
I was asked today to be truthful and the thing I was asked if I were to look past the skipping of the heart and the love in my heart whos face do I see. I thought about this and I came up with an answer which is my true feelings. I would see my friends before the current crown jewel. The past is hard to look pass you know what I mean. I have something so historical with her and she makes my world so great so vibrant so uplifting and she has been doing this for years. Not sayong my new friend doesnt but its the past that helps alot more. I dont know what I want to do because of it becaus eI love both and I dont want to hurt either. I am so ashamed.. What have I done to be in this pickle? I know what I did I was myself and really I shouldnt be so down on myself. Right?!
What do you think that I should do right now? Well I know the advice I can give to you. When you fall in love with someone you really need to know these three things before you do something really drastic:
One: You need to know if this is actually Love. Love can be a complicated thing. Love is when your heart skips a beat whenever you hear their voice, their name or just know they're there. Love is unconditional and no matter what happens you still love them. Love is strong and has emotions behind it that may confuse you but you know its love.
Two: Make sure you tell you them your feelings. Its best to have it right out there than not. You may lose you oppurtunity before you know it. Step up but be prepared to get knocked down time to time. Not everyone will lov eyou as much back you know.
Three: Do everything in your power to show them you love them on a daily basis. Dont be a sluff and do things just on important dates. Do something just because its wednesday and you had a good day. Somethin so simple and trivial will make their day. Trust me its a good thing to do.
I give this advice to you because I have been there and learned from my previous experiences. I know what love is now and maybe I am blurred about it but still I feel it. I hope someday down the road we all feel love because it makes the world spin around. Well this has been another edition of the Column.
Best of luck in all you do and remember:
'Dont let your memories kill you. Memories will one day save you.'
Lance
I have been thinking about many things on the relationship end of my life. How I feel about these two wonderful women and what I should do to make them and myself happy. On one hand I got this girl who I have been friends with for well over 7 years and we finally met in May or so. We have this friendship that we both connect with one another on many levels. Spiritual, Emotional, Physical & Mental. I mean we have it all. I love her to death, and I have for years and she knows this. She tells me on a daily basis I make her very happy and she doesnt deserve me and I tell her to stop lying to herself because she deserves alot better you know. Maybe I dont have money like her boyfriend does but I show her the affection and need everytime I see her. She obviously sees this and doesnt know what to do. She loves me way more than a friend but not as much as she should you know. She said we are in that gray area now and she is confused. I know I love her and she loves me but why cant we be together? Well that is her little thing because she has a man who she does love too in a different way. I am confused about this but we have our weekends once a month right now and maybe more sometime down the road. I dont know I want more but dont know if she wants more yet.
Then I have someone else in my life that adores me just as much and she has been the crown jewel in my life as of late. She treats me like a king but only thing is she is married. I know this sounds bad but you know it happens time to time. We both feel in love with one another and thats where we lie. Only thing is we dont have the past like my friend and I do. I mean we love eachother but its not as strong as mine and my friends. You know what I mean? If not read on.
I was asked today to be truthful and the thing I was asked if I were to look past the skipping of the heart and the love in my heart whos face do I see. I thought about this and I came up with an answer which is my true feelings. I would see my friends before the current crown jewel. The past is hard to look pass you know what I mean. I have something so historical with her and she makes my world so great so vibrant so uplifting and she has been doing this for years. Not sayong my new friend doesnt but its the past that helps alot more. I dont know what I want to do because of it becaus eI love both and I dont want to hurt either. I am so ashamed.. What have I done to be in this pickle? I know what I did I was myself and really I shouldnt be so down on myself. Right?!
What do you think that I should do right now? Well I know the advice I can give to you. When you fall in love with someone you really need to know these three things before you do something really drastic:
One: You need to know if this is actually Love. Love can be a complicated thing. Love is when your heart skips a beat whenever you hear their voice, their name or just know they're there. Love is unconditional and no matter what happens you still love them. Love is strong and has emotions behind it that may confuse you but you know its love.
Two: Make sure you tell you them your feelings. Its best to have it right out there than not. You may lose you oppurtunity before you know it. Step up but be prepared to get knocked down time to time. Not everyone will lov eyou as much back you know.
Three: Do everything in your power to show them you love them on a daily basis. Dont be a sluff and do things just on important dates. Do something just because its wednesday and you had a good day. Somethin so simple and trivial will make their day. Trust me its a good thing to do.
I give this advice to you because I have been there and learned from my previous experiences. I know what love is now and maybe I am blurred about it but still I feel it. I hope someday down the road we all feel love because it makes the world spin around. Well this has been another edition of the Column.
Best of luck in all you do and remember:
'Dont let your memories kill you. Memories will one day save you.'
Lance